Hey readers.
Shit... It's been quite some time since I've written, huh? I apologize for that.

So today was the first day of school. It was pretty cool being back, given that I have something to focus on and take my mind off of things for a while.
Then Cameron kiked me, saying he doesn't feel the same way and he's "really sorry" about leading me on.

Pfft.Typical.

But, I guess I always saw this coming. It just sucks that it's actually here.
I'll be okay though, I know that.

I have pretty cool classes- it'll be a shit-ton of work, but I think I can manage, it doesn't seem TOO difficult.

Well, wish me luck, readers. This year's gonna be tough.

I give up on love. I give up completely.

The next person I date, will be the person I marry. I'm done with the highschool bullshit

I am a troubled teen

It's been a while! Hey everyone.

Update. So last week Wednesday, Cameron and I kissed. Since then, we've been having a thing. He calls me babe, we kiss, ugmgmgmgmgm

I like him , I do. I honestly don't see it lasting that long but we'll see!

Ten days, I'm back.

Huh. That was a lot shorter than I thought.

But hmm. Update on me. A lot has happened in the past ten days.
I met Jonathan.

He's really cool. He's got this charm about him that I just can't seem to resist. And he's got this strange... magnetic pull. Whenever he's closer I just feel this body rush. Sitting next to me on the bus. The slight touch of hand when he's passing me a cigarette. The way I fist bump everyone goodbye, and he pulls me in to hug me. Hmmmmrrrfffm. He frustrates me.

Life for me has actually been pretty good. I've been smoking a lot of weed again so that's been fun. Also I've been getting my grades up AND my artwork is coming back a little. I'm gaining my sense of "me" back, and I'm still smoking weed ;3

I have a lot of self confidennce for some reason. I like the way I look :3

Until next time!

Dear potential readers.

In life, there are times in which you throw your responsibilities over your shoulder because you think you need a break. You think you do.
Do me a favor, slap yourself in the face for thinking so selfishly. Every "stress" or "responsibility" you will come across, is only to make your life better or worse. If not, then it's somebody else's problem, not yours.

Don't get lazy. Don't think you can take a break whenever you want. Sorry to tell you, but life doesn't get any easier than it is right now. We always look at the past as a simpler time, right? And that's exactly right. Your problems will only build, so just enjoy what you have right now.


I decided to skip school today. Why? Well, I don't know. I felt lazy. Unmotivated. I didn't FEEL like it. So I decided to stay home and play Rust all day. My plan was going okay until I heard someone come home, calling out Gav and I's name. I ran into my closet and hid. I hid in there for about 2 hours. Pretty pathetic right? I watched Texas Massacre because I'm a fucking weirdo. Well anyway, mom calls and asks where I am. I tell her I'm at school. Lie. Lie lie lie. That's all I ever do. Lie. God I hate myself. Why am I such a bad person? I get it from my dad, I bet. It's alright. I can change if I really try. I gotta dig deep. Because there's a devil inside me. And it's hurting everyone around me.

I'm pretty sure I'm dead. Parents are PISSED.

I'll be gone for a while. Hope to talk to some of you soon.